moonflower123

I had someone say something to me today, at the end of a frustraing day as it was, and it really really hurt my already fragile feelings. 

You just can't win sometimes.

Because of what that person said to me, I've decided I'm done with kids birthday parties.  Including my own.

That's right.  I am not having a party for them.  We are going to spend their birthday with the four of us together, and that's all we need.

So our little sunshine was up several times last night.  I think she might be teething, since she is over due and I've heard it can bother them in their sleep.  Whatever it is, it's driving us crazy.  So I'm back to drinking coffee throughout the day now to keep mysef awake.

We had a doctor's appointment this morning for a checkup.  Everything is perfect.  She gave me the go ahead to start introducing egg yokes.  Egg whites are a no no until well over a year, but they can have hard boiled egg yokes now, which are loaded with vitamins and protein.  Something new to add to the mix.

It's such a nice day I think I'll go out and do some yard work.  The only thing left to plant from seed is my dill.  I will have to wait until end of May to plant my flowers and tomatoe plants (the ones I will pick up from the greenhouse).

Okay I'm starting to get droopy eyed while tying this so I'm off to make some coffee for me and bottles for the babies.

oh p.s.  Started strawberries this morning for the first time, it was a huge hit. 
oh p.p.s Our little Angel decided to have a crap in the middle of her checkup this morning.  She grunts and groans like an old man too.  Not funny.

So the Bridal shower for my cousin went really well this weekend.  Everything pulled together nicely.  The decorations looked good, everyone seemed to really enjoy the games and she opened some really nice prezzies.  Oh and did i forget, there was a metric fuckton of food to manga.  But that's just how portugese people roll.

I left the kids with my hubby and one of my other cousin's hubby (she came with me for the ride).  I am so gratefull that they looked after the kids for me so that I didn't have to worry about them, but man, you can tell when a mother takes care of a child for a day and when someone other than a mother does.  Those kids were filthy from head to toe.  The first think I did was plunk them in the bath.  But, a little cereal smeared in the hair never hurt anyone and really I was just happy the babies were fed and in clean diapers.  Seriously, my weekend would have been a disaster if I didn't have them to watch them.

It was nice though because around the shower I got to have a visit with my other cousin and her family.  On Sunday morning my hubby and I took our kids and their kids to the park.  We had a blast.  We were all climing on the playground and swining on the swings.  I think the nice think about kids is you can feel like you are a kid again through them.  Making up stories, pretending places are other places. 

I had such a busy day today.  I spent the day catching up on laundry and cleaning.  After hubby got home from work I went out for a quick shopping trip.  I ended up buying a couple of lawn chairs, a carpet cleaner and a couple of sets of corelle dishes.  All of which we needed really badly.  I keep asking hubby to dismantle the picnic table in the backyard.  Honestly it's so run down and falling apart it's going to kill someone. 

Anywho, I'm so sleepy.  Night.

The kids have been cranky since hubby came home. 

He is definitely teething and I saw her grabbing at her ear this afternoon.  Clear sign of misery to come. 

I went out this afternoon and picked up the food i needed for the shower.  I am so unbelieveably frustrated.  This world is just not made to be convenient for a mother to try and shop with her twins.  I get to the store and because it was going to be a big shop I thought I could carry her in the harness and put him in the cart (you know when you see mother with the carseat in the top of the cart) well the problem is our carseats are huge and don't really fit.  So I can't do that.  I might have been able to put him in one of those seats they provide for you, but how do i get to it when they only have them in the front of the store.  So here I am struggling to get her out of the harness and put the two of them in their stroller.  When I do this I can only buy what can fit in the bags i can carry, which is difficult and i have to hang them over the handles of the stroller.  So when i'm done shopping i get out to the van and I take him out of the front of the stroller and the whole thing just about toppels (because I forgot about the bags).  i catch him, i catch the stroller before it flips over and by the time i get them in the van and the groceries and stoller in too, i'm shaking.

I cried the whole way home.  It's so hard now that my sister in law is working, I don't have anyone to help me with stuff like this.  It's really stressful for hubby to work all day so i try not to force him to do stuff at night because we are so busy at night with the kids.  I could get into a rant here about how people tell us we have it easier with two babies instead of a toddler and a baby, but there's no point.  Most people just don't get it.

It's just drizzling lightly here, it's supposed to pour this afternoon. Bleck.

So I owe my mother in law a big thank you.  The kids were rough the night before so she came over yesterday so i could have a nap in the afternoon.  I didn't realize how badly i needed that sleep, i was out as soon as my head hit the pillow.

I got a major project for the shower done last night and it looks great.  All packed up and ready to go.

My kids have decided they don't want to crawl.  It's much more fun to barrel roll across the livingroom.  Well it's time for breakfast (believe me not mine).  I'll post more later.

I was watching a show on the foodnetwork this morning called cook like a chef.  The chef on today was featuring seafood and he made a dish with salt cod and then he made fish cakes.   Mmmmmmmm....fish cakes.

That is my childhood man.  When my vavo used to babysit my brother and I, she would make me fish cakes all the time.  Fishcakes soaked in vinegar (that was the say i liked it).  My mouth is watering like crazy right now.

You know I've never been able to recreate the taste of those cakes. 

Anybody else have a favourite grandma food from when they were kids?

Seriously, I call and I get my little boy in right away with the pediatrician and don't have to wait.  That is how it should be, but my own doctor makes me wait at least an hour for a two minute conversation.

So yes, there is no ear infection, just teething (he was pulling on his ear all the time).  I called my hubby's Aunt this morning, who lives only about 5 minutes away.  She came by and stayed with my little girl so I could take him and not have to take both.  It was really nice of her and she loved the visit.  Win win.

The good news is that the doctor gave me the go ahead to switch the kids to 6 month formula.  I wasn't so sure about it but she said it's okay.  The reality of it is that the kids are getting more and more foods under their belts and don't need as much formula.  The good thing about the new formula is it has more calcium and iron.  And...it's cheaper.  Thank goodness.

Also they are trying some yogurt now, which they seem to like.  I still have to wait a while to give them flavoured yogurt since it tends to have a lot of sugar but they don't mind the plain stuff.  I've been making all of their veggies myself and giving them jared fruits.  What's nice is most of the baby food companies offer theiir foods in organic so I don't feel so bad about giving them jarred stuff.

Do you hear that...it's both of them crying.  urg.

It must have been the excitment of the day because between the two of them, i didn't get much sleep last night.  One was up at 10:30, the other at 2, then the other up again at 3, the second up at 4 again and finally at five when he started crying in my arms in our bed I told hubby it was his turn and i needed some more sleep.  The kids haven't had a bad night like that in a long time. 

The countdown to the bridal shower starts.  I have a few things to do this week, one thing I can't write here in case the bride to be reads it (tee hee) and I have a bunch of food to get organized, which I can't do until the end of the week so it's fresh.  I think it's going to be really great.  Oh the other thing I have to do is pick up the gift my parents and hubby and I are going in on for the bride and groom.  It's so funny because it's something she wanted from a special list of things, and yet when i visit her in the futurei am sooooo going to benefit from this.  Ha, you'll just have to wait and see to find out!

The good thing is the kiddos will be staying home with the hubby since it's too much to do shower stuff and travel with them.  He's happy to do it. I'm the maid of honour and I've got a lot of stuff to do and will have a lot of stuff to do when the wedding gets closer and he just wants to do whatever he needs to to help out, which for me means keeping the babies occupied.  What an awesome guy.

I'm going to ring the doctor this morning.  My baby boy is teething so much and grabbing his ears, but i want to double check and make sure it's not an ear infection.  

 

Saturday - Getting up and spending time to paint toenails, put on makeup and dress in spring skirt = extra attention from hubby.  I will have to remember that for later.

When i see cutiestar posting it reminds me how much i miss writing in my journal and posting.  
 
It was nice to be at the baby shower today and see everyone.  I have a hard time being so far away from my family.  Everytime i see them i get flashes of my childhood.  Playing Supermario and scarfing pixiesticks until ungodly hours.  Playing with paper dolls and eating zoodles.  Watching movies on an airmattress and eating salt and vinegar cucumbers.  Watching my baby brother in a three piece suit smash a poor froggie with a crochet mallet (probably around age 3 at a family stag and doe).  I have special memories with every one of my cousins.  I hope my kids have the same.

It's amazing how much everyone changes when they grow up, but they are the same people from my childhood.  The way they laugh and smile seems to never really change.  I wish we lived closer. 

We were both in such a grouchy mood last night.

I get home and the person who insisted I be ready to leave as soon as I get there was not ready to leave. Go fig.

We picked up a few things from the Hardware store we were going to need...stuff Jeff needed to fix the section of wall he ripped out, stain, and we also picked out the baseboards and tiles. He said he's going to try and have the walls ready to paint and the tiles installed by the time I get home this weekend.

It was Jeff's brother's birthday last weekend. We picked him up a gift and Jeff called him to wish him a happy birthday and to see if he wanted to get together. It's been sort of out confusing because Jeff's mom normally organizes the birthday stuff and she's in Florida taking care of her mom. But Jeff's brother never called back. I absolutely hate that. If someone has called you with a purpose, the decent thing to do is call back. Jeff doesn't care but I do. But then again..par for the course...

Jeff and I went to visit Gracie last weekend. We couldn't stay the night because we couldn't get a doggie sitter but we did have dinner and stayed late enough for several rounds of Ucher...and poor Gracie got stuck with me, the WORST ucher player of all time. As soon as we got there Kevin pulled me into the kitchen to make button necklaces. Celeste proudly showed me her newly pierced ears. She has these beautiful little flower studs in. I do wish we lived closer.

Happy Windsday everybody.

November 4th of last year.

I can't believe that was the last entry I made. That was the last time I wrote in my journal. Hey...I just noticed livejournal has an autosaved draft feature now. That's nice considering I can't count how many times I've been updating my explorer decides to freeze on me.

so what's new, what's new....

I went for knee surgery in January. My left knee. It went surprisingly well. I had pretty much convinced myself that it was going to be a waist of time and perhaps even make the dislocation worse. Not only did the surgery go well but the physiotherapy I've been on has been working incredibly well for me. I've been getting stronger and stronger and I'm actually excited about the upcoming surgery on my other knee. It's booked for a day in May, so unfortunately I'll be missing out on the May long weekend but I'm okay with that. Although, I know my friends and Jeffy will not be okay with with me missing the that weekend.

I was looking over the last few of my entries. One of them was about going to Jeff's Grandmother's 85th birthday. Last Monday she had congestive heart failure and ended up in the hospital. She is doing much better now and hopefully will be flying home this week (she's in Florida).

What else is new...Jeff and I have started working on the livingroom now. The bedroom turned out so nicely and we were ready for a new project. We are going out tonight to pick out the new baseboards and paints. I've picked a medium green colour for the walls. Something light but with a bit of sagey green in it. We decided not to sand the floors, it was going to cost too much money.

Work is the same...busy as snot.

I'm going to be going to visit Jackie this weekend (which is funny because my last entry was just after I had visited her in November). We are both feeling really tight for money so we are going to have an el cheapo weekend. But sometimes the best times you have don't involve spending stupid amounts of money, but just hanging out. Actually this is the first time I will have seen her after my surgery so I can grosse her out with my scars. ha ha! (actually they are not that bad)

Funny story....right after my surgery I was given morphine to help with the pain on the way home from the hospital...well I must have been coming down from it when I got home because at the same time Flowers were delivered for me from Jackie, which was totally sweet, but I was so emotional that I started bawling and Jeff was like "what's wrong!" and I started blubbering about how sweet she is and how thoughtful it was...but I was soooo coming down from a mophine trip. Not that it wasn't sweet, but I probably didn't need to bawl my eyes out like a retard.

Adios amigos.

Well it's been a crazy week to say the least. I am omitting several things from my journal this morning, because I just want to leave things be. Things are better now and that is all that matters.

I can't believe my last entry was after I had dinner with Chris and T. That seems like ages ago.

So I went to visit Jackie's new house this weekend. Wholey Christmas Batman the house is HUGE! Her and Darryl really got a steal for this house. Words can't describe it. They have a three car garage (jeff drooled when I told him) and cathedral ceilings inside. I love that they have main floor laundry. It makes it so much easier. You can really tell Jackie has worked her ass off the first week they moved in because pretty much everything was put away, accept for a few things here and there (just leftover boxes, which is normal when you move) Her house is just gorgeous. I wanted to have a bath in her tub as soon as I saw it, the onsuite has this gorgeous corner tub. I told Darryl that one day he will have to surprise her with a bubble bath and candles. He said he doesn't think he can fit in the tub, but really guys don't need baths.

So there are two things I can tell you about Jackie's house. Her applicances are adorable. Her washer and dryer sing to her when she's doing laundry, which makes her giggle. So when she's doing laundry you just want to laugh. Second, she's been in a for a week and it already smells like her. When you walk from room to room it goes from berry smell, to green apple, to vanilla. Her and I went out shopping on Saturday and found this really cute bookshelf for her office. Her and I on Friday night watched the Sisterhood of the Traveling pants. It was a cute movie.

Poor Jackie had to work Saturday morning, so I got up and Darryl and I had breakfast together. He's such a down to earth guy, a little shy but you know what, I think shyness is a really good quality in a person. Plus him and I have never really had any time alone before.

I'm so excited. Jeff and I went out last night and bought our bedroom set for our room. I've been waiting for so long for this. It's solid wood in a Conyac stain. The long dresser is really tall for a dresser, more of a classic style and it comes with an Armoir instead of a tall dresser. It's going to be delivered in two weeks.

Well this weekend is sort of out the window. Jeff and I are going to his grandmother's 85th birthday this weekend and we will be gone all day Saturday. Sunday morning Jeff wants to go to 8 o'clock mass.

I made two dozen oatmeal cookies last night. Jeff ate one dozen and took the other one to work for his lunch this morning. No wonder his mom used to his goodies on him when he was a kid.

Have a great weekend everybody!

Oh my god, I always forget how much I love hanging out with Chris and T.

Picture us in a booth at a Japanese restaurant, scarfing down sushi and sake and Chris talking about being so constipated one day he was praying for a spoon to appear. Those are the times that I love with my friends. Just laughing at the most imature things.

Poor Jeff. In the early hours of this morning he suddenly rolled over and spooned me. Which he never does so I just loved it but he told me this morning that it was because he'd had a bad dream. He had dreamed that I had cheated on him and it made him so sad. Poor Jeffy.

I'm going to Uncle Frank's for dinner Saturday night. They are cooking up a traditional Newie Salt Beef Dinner. Mmmmmm salt beef. Yippee. Jeff doesn't really like salt beef. Which is good. More for me. I told them I would bring dessert. Now that my stove is working I guess I don't have to limit myself to no-bake cheese cake.

Have a great weekend everyone.

Congrats on the new house Jackie & Darryl! I can't wait to see it!

You know what, I am so fucking sick of fake people.

I went down to the local coffee shop to pick myself up a sandwhich for my starving self (I paid 6 bucks for a fucking turkey with swiss, which I can guarentee you I will NEVER do again) and I ran into a banker from my local branch. She set up a line of credit for Jeff and I last year. She said hi and chatted me up for a full minute before I realized that she had no idea who I was, not a freaking clue.

I've decided to dye my hair. I want to dye it a dark red. Whether or not I get brave enough to do it is another story. Can you dye over professional highlights without really screwing up your hair?

Jeff and I are having dinner tonight with Chris and Tina. We are going out for Japanese food. I've had a killer craving for some time now. It's the sort of thing thought that Jeff and I both agree is better to eat in a group.

I bought two boxes of Girl guide cookies this morning. One I'm going to give to Jean. The other I'm going to keep in my bottom drawer and let myself have one a day. If I can't resist the tempation to have just one a day I'm going to open it up and let it be devoured by my co-workers. It's the chocolate mint kind. [Don't worry Gracie I still want a box or two from Celeste if she has any left].

I don't know why, but I am in the worst mood right now. I think I must be PMSing. I could honestly scream at the next thing that walks in my office. Come on...I dare ya...

Vanilla Frost Trident tastes like Christmas. No Joke.

So last night was nice, I went out and bought myself a new outfit and some new shoes. Brown, brown and black. Nice for the season. Pink is also in, but I can't really do pink.

Jeffy thinks he fixed my stove. As nice as it is that we don't have to get a new stove, I was looking forward to getting rid of my 80's stove, complete with beaver panel under dials.

I need a coffee, Jody where are you? We always head out to this coffee shop around the corner to get our morning fix before nine.

We are actually going to be really bad today. We are driving all the way to Milton to get Wendy's mmmmm. That is how bad we want some. We are willing to drive 20 minutes to get some.

What would you drive 20 minutes to get for lunch? If you were that crazy?

Crap I started to write and now I've lost my entry.

I hate it when you hit something wrong on your keyboard and lose what you had written.

Jist of it...I stood up for myself at work and took a lunch. Heated up my soup and closed my door. Everyone was shocked to say the least, but I got to read for my lunch and that was worth it. It will be my daily routine.

Mmmm...routine sounds like poutine.

But I had some cheese cake today so I'm going to have to have a light dinner.

Mmmmm...or Kraft dinner....

Oh my.

Last night Jeff made me a small Hawiian pizza.   mmmmm It was sooo yummy.  He knows I've been craving it something bad.

So I'm at work at an insane hour, 7:30 am to be exact.  I'm not actually working yet.  I'm glad we don't have the internet at home right now.  It leaves more room for digital cable.  But i'm off topic now.  Why am I in so early?  Jeff and I car pooled.   Which is awesome.  Now I won't have to put gas in my car until Monday.  I want us to do it more because it will save us money and hardship on my car.  I'd like to do it all winter but we can't leave the dog at home by herself for that long.  She wouldn't be doing the pee pee dance when we get home, she would be doing the relieved dance (as in already relieved herself).

God someone had the radio station at the office on some old crap rock station! Bleck.

My cold sore seems to be on it's way to splitzville. It's dry and crusty and starting to get smaller.  Hopefully tomorrow it will be almost gone.  I hate walking around in public with such a hideous thing on my face.   You know other than my extremely large mediterainian nose. 

I ended up being a bad girl yesterday and bought myself this awesome little black purse from bentleys.  It's a nice soft leather (fake of course), black with large white stiching on the strap and on the side.    I wish I had my digital camera here.  I'd take a pic of it.

enough is enough laura, stop boring them with your dribble

i'll stop when I want to... nah!

k here I go....

My dog is the best.

We have been going for these really peaceful walks together in the morning, and because she isn't a male dog who would feel the need to pee on everything she just walks beside me at a comfortable pace. We go when it's still dark out and the squirls are usually still sleeping.

We almost had a run in with a skunk the other morning. I can't wait until it gets too cold for them to be wandering about. I think they hibernate, but I'm not sure. I can't think of anything worse than having my morning walk with Lily and having her get sprayed.

I'm going to be really bad today and buy myself a new purse. My current one is just not big enough. I hate having to smush things in to do up the zipper. I'm also due for a new cell phone card. It's funny how a person can complain she has no money one day and the next magically find funds for stuff like a new purse.

Jean called me last night and reminded me that Jeff's grandmother's church bizzar is this weekend. I go with her every year. I was hoping to sneak away and go and visit Jackie this weekend, but that doesn't look like i'm going to be able to now. Sorry Jackie, do you still love me? I go every year with Jean and she would be hurt if I didn't.